And so it is…..

Hi everybody, I hope you’re all happy and doing wonderfully.  🙂  I hope you’ll indulge me while I pour my heart out today…..

I pre-enrolled for a class in October of this last year for a class that does not start until September of this year.  I just requested a refund because of some personal things, and would you believe they said no?  Yep, they’re citing policy that states you have 21 days to ask for a refund, when class starts, and you may only request a refund on that 21st day.  Not one day before or one day after.  Well, day 1 of that 21 days hasn’t even begun!  That’s just not right!  There is a definite gray area, but they’re not budging.  I don’t even know if they’re going to let me ask for a refund on the 21st day!  I just don’t know what to do……frustrated……

This morning, I talked to my Dad.  Last July he was diagnosed with a very unique/rare form of Leukemia.  He’s been undergoing a type of chemo ever since along with almost 40 blood transfusions now, and platelets have recently started too.  A few weeks ago, they decided he’d been misdiagnosed.  They know it’s a blood dysfunction of some sort, but not sure exactly what it is yet.  They did a bone marrow biopsy last week and got the results yesterday.  His bone marrow is like cement.  They aren’t sure what that means exactly yet.  It could possibly mean that he’s got full blown Leukemia, orrrrr not.  If it is, his choices are three weeks in the hospital on a chemo drip, or hospice.  He says he’ll think about that when/if the time comes.  If we’re lucky it could be another year or more before he has to think about it.  Dad says dying is easy, it’s staying alive that’s hard.  He’s right.  It’s also very hard to sit around and be helpless while your Dad is clear across the country.  😦  So, we wait.  We pray for a miracle….

I’m soooo not ready for him to leave this earthly realm, but I don’t want him to suffer either.  I know in my heart he’ll be in Heaven, happy and healthy.  I know I will see him again one day, but it’s so very hard to think of that time coming so much sooner than we ever want.  Can’t we have another 20-30 years?  He’s only 71…

I’m thankful for some great memories that I will forever have though. My Dad taught me how to work on cars/trucks…..brake jobs, engine work, drive train.  Because of this I was able to put a starter on the car one time (wayyyy back in the late 80’s) while my hubby was at work.  They were both proud of me!  Dad also taught me many aspects of remodeling houses…..sheetrock, paint, roofing.  He taught me the proper use of a firearm, from shooting to proper cleaning.  He taught me to be strong and independent. I have learned so much and am so very thankful and grateful that I was lucky enough to get to learn all the things I have from him.  I’m grateful we got to spend time together last year.  It was the first time I’d seen him in two years and it’s been over a year since then.  I’m thankful we at least get to talk on the phone once in a while.  No matter what, I will forever and always be a Daddy’s girl and I’m proud of it.    I love you Daddy!

Thank you for letting me pour my heart out today, I needed that…….

Until next time, wishing each of you lots of great memories, love and Blessings……

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