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And so it is…..

Hi everybody, I hope you’re all happy and doing wonderfully.¬† ūüôā¬† I hope you’ll indulge me while I pour my heart out today…..

I pre-enrolled for a class in October of this last year for a class that does not start until September of this year.¬† I just requested a refund because of some personal things, and would you believe they said no?¬† Yep, they’re citing policy that states you have 21 days to ask for a refund, when class starts, and you may only request a refund on that 21st day.¬† Not one day before or one day after.¬† Well, day 1 of that 21 days hasn’t even begun!¬† That’s just not right!¬† There is a definite gray area, but they’re not budging.¬† I don’t even know if they’re going to let me ask for a refund on the 21st day!¬† I just don’t know what to do……frustrated……

This morning, I talked to my Dad.¬† Last July he was diagnosed with a very unique/rare form of Leukemia.¬† He’s been undergoing a type of chemo ever since along with almost 40 blood transfusions now, and platelets have recently started too.¬† A few weeks ago, they decided he’d been misdiagnosed.¬† They know it’s a blood dysfunction of some sort, but not sure exactly what it is yet.¬† They did a bone marrow biopsy last week and got the results yesterday.¬†¬†His bone¬†marrow is like cement.¬† They aren’t sure what that means exactly yet.¬† It could possibly mean that he’s got full blown Leukemia, orrrrr not.¬† If it is, his choices¬†are three weeks in the hospital on a chemo drip, or hospice.¬†¬†He says he’ll think about that when/if the time comes.¬† If we’re lucky it could be another year or more before he has to think about it.¬† Dad says dying is easy, it’s¬†staying alive¬†that’s hard.¬† He’s right.¬†¬†It’s also very hard to sit around and be helpless while your Dad is¬†clear across the country.¬† ūüė¶¬† So, we wait.¬† We pray for a miracle….

I’m soooo not ready for him to leave this earthly realm, but I don’t want him to suffer either.¬† I know in my heart he’ll be in Heaven, happy and healthy.¬† I know I will see him again one day, but it’s so very hard to think of that time coming so much sooner than we ever want.¬† Can’t we have another 20-30¬†years?¬† He’s only 71…

I’m thankful for some great memories that I will forever have though.¬†My Dad taught me¬†how to¬†work on cars/trucks…..brake jobs, engine work, drive train. ¬†Because of this I was able to¬†put a starter on the car one time (wayyyy back in the late 80’s) while my hubby was at work.¬†¬†They were both proud of me!¬†¬†Dad also taught me many aspects of¬†remodeling houses…..sheetrock, paint, roofing.¬† He taught me the proper use of a firearm, from shooting to proper cleaning.¬† He taught me to be strong and independent. I have learned so much and am so very thankful and grateful that I was lucky enough to get to¬†learn all the things I have from him.¬† I’m grateful we got to spend time together last year.¬† It was the first time I’d seen¬†him in two years and it’s been over a year since then.¬† I’m thankful we at least get to talk on the phone once in a while.¬† No matter what, I will forever and always be a Daddy’s girl and I’m proud of it.¬†¬†¬†¬†I love you Daddy!

Thank you for letting me pour my heart out today, I needed that…….

Until next time, wishing each of you lots of great memories, love and Blessings……

Defining Morality

Something for everyone to read and think about…..and hopefully, just hopefully, some will remember what good morals are, and help spread the message of having good morals…..

On My Heart

Every person decides how they will define morality. That’s a privilege and a problem for every person on the planet. It’s a privilege if you see yourself as your on moral authority and you can define right and wrong however you see fit. It’s a problem if every OTHER human being on the planet has the same absolute freedom. Inevitably, that other person’s morality will conflict with yours, and the same argument you have used to justify your moral boundaries will be used by the person who is now offending you.

For centuries, God has provided the basic foundation for moral choices.  He revealed the Ten Commandments as the building blocks for healthy society.  The rub is simple: if you are your own moral authority (god), then you create those; if HE is the moral authority (God), then HE defines those.  In fact, if you are creating your own moral framework…

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Dear Mom, I love you, and I will miss you…..

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Hi Mom,

Well, you’re finally at peace and have joined all of your family, friends and pets¬†that passed before you. I know in my heart that you’ll finally be happy and no longer sad and alone. I can only imagine how hard the last few months have been for you. Scared, suddenly not knowing¬†who you are, nor anyone else….not being able to speak or write, or eat, or, well, just no longer being able to function…..¬† I truly can only imagine, but what I imagine is very very scary, and I’m so sorry that you had to endure that until God decided it was time for you to come home to Him.

I hope that you do know that all these years have been just as hard for me as they were for you. Not being able to have a relationship with your mom is so very hard, and people that have a great relationship with their mom’s just don’t get how hard it is.¬†¬†Not having a chance to say goodbye and tell you I love you is even harder than I could have ever imagined it would be. I wanted to see you, but I was told that I shouldn’t see you that way, to just remember you how you were when I was young.¬† So, I will do my best to remember the good times we had together when I was a little girl and not the rest. Thank you for teaching me to be responsible, how to clean a house, good work ethics, how to iron, how to embroider, the difference between right and wrong…..thank you for teaching me to love animals and care for them…..thank you for taking me to church so that I could learn about God, and accept Jesus as my Savior so that when the time comes I know I’ll be in heaven and see you again…..thank you for giving me the opportunity to learn to have an appreciation for music and learn to play music¬†too…..thank you for teaching me there can be consequences for your actions, and that discipline isn’t meant to be cruel…..thank you for teaching me manners and to respect my elders, thank you for teaching me to have morals…..thank you for all the good times we had during our short time together,¬†and let’s remember only those……

I love you Mama, and I will miss you so very very much. Now, go join with the angels, and your family, and be happy like you should be. ‚̧